How Books Can Bring Happiness

I think it’s safe to say that a lot of us deal with some form of mental illness and we all have different ways of coping with said mental illnesses. One of those ways for me is by shopping. Now, I know this isn’t always the best option in dealing with my illnesses, but if it’s something that brings me temporary joy when I’m feeling otherwise deep darkness, I’m going to do so. Of course, I often regret those decisions right away, but I usually end up with something cute or useful or a book or something… It all evens out, right?

I was just thinking about this and wanted to talk about how reading helps with depression and anxiety, at least for me, and how art is a huge stress reliever.

I know we all joke about how we love books because they destroy us, but is that really a joke? What is it about our emotions being pulled this way and that that make us feel happy? I love to read fluffy stories because they’re super feel-good and cute and they just make me want to swim in a rainbow of daisies, but I also love to read dark books that deal with a very different side of humanity because it’s always interesting to see how they affect me and how I think afterward.

I think that no matter what kinds of books we read, unless we actually hate or dislike the book for whatever reason, it brings us some form of happiness. It lets us feel like there’s more inside of us than what we had before and that’s a feeling that’s very euphoric and hard to let go of.

I haven’t really read any novels this year, but I’ve been reading a lot of manga that’s been making me feel good or giddy or happy. Of course I’ve read some darker things with a lot of action and blood and death, but I find that those stories, too, are just as valuable to me as those that are full of cute romances. When I read novels, it’s the same thing, and I get that feeling of excitement and anticipation when I’m reading. It’s like a light at the end of that dark tunnel that’s trying to keep me trapped inside. I reach for that light and I find hold onto that small glimmer that makes me happy again.

Books are powerful. They have the power to change our emotions and instill in us something other than what we were expecting. And that’s amazing.

And even though I have probably over 200 books that are on my shelves waiting to be read, I know that they’ll still be there, waiting for me no matter my mental state that day, and that’s such a wonderful comfort (even though I’m running out of space ahhhh).

The same goes for art. Art is a super stress reliever for me. I find that when I’m drawing, I can be doing it for hours and not feel hungry or depressed or anything other than focused on what’s in front of me. I’m creating something that I’m happy with (hopefully; the end result is always negotiable in that regard) and something that brings me joy, and that’s something that I wouldn’t trade for the world.

I just want you to know that if you’re dealing with your mental illnesses to remember you’re not alone and to not give up. Find the healthy things that make you happy and latch onto them in those moments. Who knows, maybe they’ll be just what you need in that moment to turn it around for the better.

Let’s Chat! ^w^

What books bring you happiness when you’re feeling down? I’d love to hear any recommendations!

Top Ten Tuesday: Ten Things on My Reading Wishlist

Hey, I haven’t done one of these in a while. Welcome to another Top Ten Tuesday as hosted by the lovely people over at The Broke & the Bookish! Today’s topic is about the things on our reading wishlists that we want to see more of in books, whether that be tropes, types of characters, plots, etc.

1. More hate-to-love relationships. Okay, so, does it make me weird that I really like to read about these kinds of relationships? I think there’s something sweet about them and how it shows how people’s emotions can change and develop over time and with learned trust and respect. I don’t know, there’s just something humbling about it.

2. More relationships that have already started pre-book and continue to be strong throughout the story. I mean, do I really need to explain this one? Because I see a MAJOR lack in this kind of romantic relationship, period.

3. More childhood friendships that either do or don’t turn into romantic relationships. Now I love this kind of trope and think it’s super cute when it’s well done, but I hate it when there’s petty jealousy and all of that crap. But I know that also makes for an angsty story, so…

4. Of course more diversity is always a plus. LGBT+, POC, religious, etc. We all know what I mean.

5. Super cheesy fluff. Okay. I know we all like to read about the super cool hero/ine that goes out and saves the world, but what about those stories that are just feel-good and are about a week in their lives where they just kind of bum around, have funny Snapchat talks with friends, snuggle with their loved one, go on a date… I don’t know, I just want more fluff! Of course this would probably be better as a short story than a full on novel, but still.

6. More books set in other countries other than the US or fantasy worlds! I want to read more about cultures across the world through YA books. If you have any recommendations, please let me know!

7. Show more interactions with the online world. In case you haven’t noticed, you’re currently reading this on the Internet (GASP!), and the sheer lack of technology in many, many, MANY books is unrealistic. I get that there can be problems, but there’s always room to improve and grow in these areas. Many people have a large part of their lives online, so it’s only realistic to include that in books.

8. More adventures and less saving the world. I mean, don’t get me wrong, those books are and always will be awesome, but I’d love to read a super cool adventure story of a group of friends just going out and seeing the world, without having to save it from The Big Bad.

9. More pets! Super cute puppies and kitties and llamas and sheep and horses…. Okay, maybe this one’s just me, lol

10. More healthy family interactions! It’s always SO amazing to see healthy family interactions between teens and their parents or siblings, and I really, really just want to see more of that.

Let’s Chat! ^w^

What’s on your reading wishlist? What more would you like to see of in books? Does anything on my list resonate with you? Let me know!

Anime Rewind #1

Hey peeps! So today I wanted to introduce something new: Anime Rewind! This is a new feature where I’m going to talk about the anime I’ve been watching lately, my thoughts, how many episodes I’ve watched, and more. I’ll be doing this feature monthly, so let’s get into it!

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Boruto: Naruto Next Generations

The life of the shinobi is beginning to change. Boruto Uzumaki, son of Seventh Hokage Naruto Uzumaki, has enrolled in the Ninja Academy to learn the ways of the ninja. Now, as a series of mysterious events unfolds, Boruto’s story is about to begin!

Episodes Watched: 1-5, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: I know I already talked briefly about the first episode of Boruto, but let me tell you: I’m loving the show so far! It has a very sort of nostalgic feel to it, but the animation is a lot smoother and brighter, the story is progressing in a way that we’re getting to learn not just about Boruto, but the other characters that surround him, and there are so many questions and mysteries that have yet to be explained so I’m very excited to see where the rest of the series goes from here.

Episodes 2-5 have much the same thing of some mysterious purple shadow that takes over someone and causes them to act not as themselves; in fact, it causes them to act violently towards others. Boruto is able to see this shadow with his eye (similar to his mother’s Byakugan) but he doesn’t know how he’s able to do it. In some cases it’s in his friends and in others it’s in other people. I have many questions as to what this foreign matter is because episode four showed how strong Boruto is and how he was able to summon a very large purple glowing monkey monster thing from another dimension – though no one seemed to see it at all.

There’s lot of hilarity at times, especially between the boys and girls, and I love the slow incorporation of the old characters that we all know and love. I have high hopes for this series and I can’t wait to see where it goes from here.

Rating So Far: 4/5 stars

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Tsukigakirei

It’s the third year of middle school. Kotaro, a bookish boy aspiring to become a novelist, and Akane, a track girl who loves to run, meet in the same class together for the first time. They’re put in charge of the equipment for the sports festival, and slowly grow closer via LINE. How does Kotaro deal with his growing feelings for her? Meanwhile, Takumi has been in love with Akane since first year, and Akane’s friend, Chinatsu, becomes interested in Kotaro. A refreshing story of young love set in Kawagoe.

Episodes Watched: 1-5, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: MY PRECIOUS BABIES OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS ANIME. No, but seriously, this is a super sweet anime about young love and finding connection and it’s just so cute. The first five episodes are about that feeling of a crush developing and the difficulties that can potentially come along with it, especially when those two characters are shy. *squeeing in the distance* It’s just so cute and it brings me all of the happy feelings.

The animation style is also very lovely and it integrates two kinds of styles: traditional anime style and video game style. I mean, I’m sure there are actual terms for this, but that’s what I could tell from watching it. It’s unique in that sense and I really think that it makes the anime stand out in that way.

As for the story, we have the shy guy who just wants to write a successful novel, and the shy girl who’s on the track team and the fastest female runner. There’s friendships in there, too, that we see, but it primarily focuses on the developing romantic feelings between the two main characters. And of course drama just got introduced in this last episodes AND I JUST WANT MY BABIES TO BE HAPPY, OKAY!?

Rating So Far: 5/5 stars

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The Royal Tutor

The “Royal Tutor” is a special tutor carefully selected for the task of teaching the prince, and a title given only to the best teacher in the nation. Heine Wittgenstein has been called to the kingdom of Grannzreich to take on the role of the Royal Tutor. He’s been ordered to raise a worthy candidate for the throne, but he’s greeted with four princes of completely different, unique personalities… all brothers, no less! How will Heine handle these four brothers who were too much for all the previous Royal Tutors, prompting them all to run away from the job?

Episodes Watched: 1-5, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: I. Love. This. Anime. Holy carp. Okay, so I wasn’t sure what to expect when I first went into this. I’m like, “Okay, it has a bunch of pretty boys in it… but what about the story?” I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED, FRIENDS. This show plays so much on stereotypes, which makes it hilarious, but it also is about this mysterious tutor, Heine, who is trying his best to teach these four princes about several subjects and about real life so that they may take the throne one day.

First off, the animation? Glorious. I love how they use chibi versions of Heine in some scenes because omg too funny. Here, a few examples:

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What’s hilarious about this is that Heine is actually very short in comparison to the princes, but I believe he’s actually older than them, so it’s kind of this huge joke in the anime itself (hence him getting carried off by doves and being carried like a small dog by Prince Leonhard).

And then each of the princes have very distinct personalities, and each of them are kind of taken to extremes (because let’s be real, this whole anime is one big joke). The second eldest prince, Kai (we don’t know the eldest yet), is very stoic and calm and has a very mean glare (but really he’s the most precious bean of ever and I love him to death ahhhhh), Bruno, who is very studious and smart and thinks his intellect is superior to everyone else’s, Leonhard, who hates studying but is really good at athletics and loves cake, and then Lict, the youngest prince and the playboy, but who also has a very keen side to him.

Overall, this anime is glorious and gives me life, and if you watch anything off of this list DEFINITELY WATCH THIS ONE.

Rating So Far: 5/5 stars

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My Hero Academia

Izuku has dreamt of being a hero all his life—a lofty goal for anyone, but especially challenging for a kid with no superpowers. That’s right, in a world where eighty percent of the population has some kind of super-powered “quirk,” Izuku was unlucky enough to be born completely normal. But that’s not enough to stop him from enrolling in one of the world’s most prestigious hero academies.

Episodes Watched: 1, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: Okay, so my friends are really into this series and told me to watch it, but the way they explained it made it just sound weird and not my thing. WELL GUESS WHAT!? It is SO my thing because I’ve only just watched the first episode as of writing this post, and let me tell you: I love it. The animation style is very quirky and has a roughness to it that comes with shonen anime, but I think that just adds to the overall aesthetic of the show itself. Not only do we get to learn that 80% of the world’s population is some form of superhero, but our main character? Yeah, he’s not one, but he strives to be one!

I thought that learning a bit about why Izuku wants to become a superhero was SO touching and I almost cried, not gonna lie, but the rest of the episode was all kinds of hilarity and actiony and so good. I can’t give more thoughts just yet, but just wait for my next wrap up!

Rating So Far: 4/5 stars

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Blue Exorcist (season 2)

Assiah, the realm of humans, and Gehenna, the realm of demons. Normally, these two dimensions would never intersect, but having possessed all material substances, the demons are now intruding on the material world. But among the human race, there are those who can exorcise such demons – The Exorcists.

Episodes Watched: 1-12, completed season 2

Thoughts: I really enjoyed the first season when I watched it two years ago or so and this season didn’t disappoint either. It picks up fairly soon after where the first season left off and it takes the gang on a trip to Kyoto to guard – and later on fight – the Impure King. I love this animation style, and I feel that it really enhanced the story. As for the story itself, it showed development of the main characters Rin and his twin brother, Yukio, as well as other characters in the series and how their relationships with one another could be rebuilt with time.

I thought that this particular story arc was good, but I still have SO many questions regarding various things and that it didn’t hold the same kind of spark that the first season had, but my main question is: what is going to happen to Yukio? Because both Rin and Yukio are the sons of Satan, but only Rin has Satan’s blue flame power, Yukio showed signs that that power might be manifesting in him as well? And even a demon saw it in his eyes and now I’m 100000% intrigued in his story. I need to know!

I love this series and how it uses humor as well as its serious moments and I think that if you’re interested you should check out the first season for sure.

Rating: 4/5 stars

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Kenka Banchou Otome – Girl Beats Boys-

Following the events of the game, the orphan heroine Hinako Nakayama suddenly reunites with her twin brother Hikaru who asks her to take his place at Shishiku Academy, a private boys school infamous for its rough-and-tumble student body. Hikaru being the child of a powerful Yakuza family, the Onigashima, he is obligated to become the leader of Shishiku Academy. Hinako will have to hide her identity and fight to control the school. How will Hinako deal with a school full of handsome boys who let their fists do the talking rather than talk about their feelings?

Episodes Watched: 1-4, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: My first thought is WHY are the episodes only eight minutes long!? This has SUCH potential to be such a good series, and I think that it’s doing a good job in the short span of time that it uses, but man, I wish these episodes were longer.

This anime was kind of a surprise to me because I was looking at the list of simulcasts for spring and this one popped up. I’m like, “ooh, an otome? Like the games I play? Sign me up.” (because I’m trash) and so I started watching this and now I’m hooked because I need to know if the guys ever find out her secret identity and if she ends up with one of them (I’m already shipping her with the blond guy) and omg I need more. She kicks butt and I’m like, YASSSS! But at the same time I want to know more about each character and I seriously wish this series had longer episodes. Argh.

Rating So Far: 3/5 stars

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March comes in like a lion

This is a gentle tale about people trying to regain something. And it is a tale of battle. The main character, Rei Kiriyama, lost his family in an accident when he was young. Now he is a 17-year-old pro shogi player who is burdened with deep loneliness. Rei lives alone in an old town in Tokyo, but after becoming acquainted with three sisters, Akari, Hinata and Momo, he begins to change little by little…

Episodes Watched: 1-4, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: This is a bittersweet story about a boy who lives alone but often spends time with a family of girls who care for him like their own sibling. I think that this story is very different and it’s really trying to dive into the depths of loneliness, depression, and sadness, but on the flip side it’s also trying to look at love, family, and happiness. It’s got a unique animation style that isn’t my favorite, but it works for this story. I think that I’ll have to watch more episodes to see how I really feel about it, but so far it’s interesting.

Rating So Far: 3/5 stars

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Brothers Conflict

As the only daughter of a famous adventurer, Hinata Ema has had a pretty lonely life. But when her father remarries, she leaves the newlyweds alone and moves in to a huge building with her 13 cute new stepbrothers—each of which has a very unique personality. Oh, and her over-protective, talking pet squirrel is there, too. Is love in the air for Hinata?

Episodes Watched: 1-4, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: This otome series is kind of ridiculous, but OMGILOVEIT. Okay, so I’m clearly a sucker for harems/reverse harems/otome stories because this series just gives me life. It’s so cheesy but it’s soooo good! It follows this girl as she becomes part of this very large family of 13 brothers, and how several of the brothers are falling for her, and just… I can’t. I’m already laughing typing this.

Anyway, from what I’ve watched so far, I ship her with the red head brother because she already knew him before the marriage and her moving in and everything, PLUS he likes her to begin with, but things happened and now she’s kissing another brother and I’m just like, “stahhhhpppp, go with my shiiiiip.” I also ship her with another one, but shh.

I think I need to watch more and figure out my feelings on this because it’s just hilarious and brings me much joy.

Rating So Far: 3/5 stars

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Tokyo Ghoul

Tokyo lives in fear of creatures called Ghouls. When a young man becomes the first Ghoul-human hybrid, he must control his deadly hunger.

Episodes Watched: 1-2, ongoing

Thoughts So Far: As I’ve read the Tokyo Ghoul series up to volume 12, I know what’s going on and stuff, but I still wanted to watch the anime and wow, I knew it was violent and bloody, but damn. I’m enjoying it so far, though, and I think the pacing is going really well with the books, so that’s always a plus. The anime introduced ghouls, what they are, Ken, how he gets turned into one, and it’s all kind of very fast paced and it really takes you right into the story right away.

I’m interested to see how it handles the movements of the ghouls and everything, but so far what I’ve seen? Very smooth, very intense, and kind of sexual? Like… whoa. Anyway, this anime isn’t for the faint of heart, so if you’re interested in seeing it, just remember there’s a lot of blood and ripping of body parts.

But I still love it.

Rating So Far: 4/5 stars


Ahhhh, sorry this post was so long, but I’ve been watching a lot of anime lately, and I don’t think this is even everything I’ve been watching? Either way, let me know what your thoughts are if you’ve watched any of these and fangirl with me over ships and whatnot.

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Do you watch anime? What have you watched lately that you would recommend to me? Let me know!

Spring Reading Wrap Up

Time for a reading wrap up! Haven’t done one in a while, but I figured I’d talk about all of the things I’ve been reading the last couple of months. I’ve been reading pretty much exclusively manga, and I’ve been loving it because I haven’t read this much manga in a long time. But I’m enjoying pretty much everything I’ve been reading, so here’s what I’ve read so far this year! (I’m not going to talk about some of the books I’ve already done separate reviews for, but rather other series.)

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Tokyo Ghoul by Sui Ishida, volumes 1-12. Shy Ken Kaneki is thrilled to go on a date with the beautiful Rize. But it turns out that she’s only interested in his body—eating it, that is. When a morally questionable rescue transforms him into the first half-human half-Ghoul hybrid, Ken is drawn into the dark and violent world of Ghouls, which exists alongside our own.

There’s a total of 14 volumes in this series, and though the whole series is completed and I could read it all, I’m actually collecting these specific editions of the series. BUT what I’ve read of the series so far? Oh. My. God. It’s so dark and twisted and I love it.

It’s rated for older teens 16+ and with good reason because there’s a lot of blood and violence that happens in this story. Ken Kaneki goes through a lot when he suddenly becomes a ghoul after being attacked by one, and it’s pretty much his journey going through a lot of hardships, almost dying several times, and becoming stronger to save others.

Honestly, it’s one of my favorite series I’ve read and I’m glad I picked it up. It really deserves the hype it has. There’s humans who work for an organization trying to abolish ghouls, and then there are sects of ghouls who try to rise up against them. I recommend this series if you’re looking for something darker and more intense. I’m also currently watching the anime and, hoo boy, it’s intense.

Noragami by Adachitoka, volumes 1-17. Yato is a stray god. He doesn’t even have a shrine, not to mention worshipers! Hoping he’ll eventually raise enough money to build himself the lavish temple of his dreams, Yato accepts all kinds of jobs. Of course, he can’t afford to be picky; from finding lost kittens to helping a student overcome bullies, no job is too small for Yato, the god-for-hire! An eccentric story with a charming cast of characters!

This is probably one of my favorite series ever because it’s so fun but also serious at times, and omg I ship Hiyori and Yato so much like JUST KISS ALREADY, and there are other characters that I’ve grown attached to and I want to know what exactly happens with them because I’ve read up to volume 17 and so much has happened!

Yato is a god who was made through wishes and he is often forgotten if he is ever seen or helps others. And then when Hiyori sees him one day and saves him from being hit by a truck (even though the driver couldn’t see him), she then ends up almost dying and being able to slip out of her body and join Yato – and eventually Yato’s shinki [weapon], Yukine – on their jobs and adventures. It’s such a great story that doesn’t fail to make me laugh and be suspicious of so many characters and their true intentions.

Seriously check this series out. It’s so good and very addicting. Plus the art style is really nice to look at.

Ten Count by Rihito Takarai, volumes 1-6. When the President got into an accident, Shirotani Tadaomi met Kurose. On their very first meeting, Kurose could tell right away that Shirotani is Mysophobic and said that it’s pretty bad while suggesting it would be better to consult a doctor about it. Shirotani was left perturbed by the encounter. Who is Kurose? And how was he able to tell Shirotani’s condition?

This is a yaoi series which means lots of boy/boy love and sex, and I’m really enjoying this series. At least, up until the last few chapters because now I feel like Kurose is really just using Shirotani and it’s not healthy and just… yeah… But anyway, up until that point, it was hot and steamy and it was nice to see Kurose wanting to help Shirotani with his mysophobia, and Shirotani is making progress, but I hope events don’t escalate and he becomes worse than before.

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Koisuru Harinezumi by Nao Hinachi, volumes 1-3. To change from ‘like’ to ‘love’, what strategies must Ozawa use on Kazuki? Kazuki Heiji is the troublemaker. He gets into fights and is very cold to everyone. Ozawa Kii witnesses a fight between a classmate and Kazuki but he unexpectedly says he wants to become friends? And what’s this about ‘like’ and ‘love’.

Ahhhh the cutenessssssssss. This is a shoujo manga, meaning it’s more tailored toward girls with romance and all of that, and I love shoujo manga, so this was right up my alley. The art style is very lovely and the story is a cute one of a scary guy, Kazuki, who is approached one day by a sweet girl, Ozawa, to turn in an assignment, and they soon find themselves in a friendship. But Ozawa slowly starts to fall for him and things just kind of get more complicated from there in ways but sweeter in others.

If you need a light hearted read with cute feels, definitely check out this series. It’s super cute and yeah, the story isn’t original, but who cares? Still so many feels.

Tsubaki Chou Lonely Planet, chapters 1-33. Ohno Fumi is a poor 2nd year high school student. Because of her father’s debts, she’s kicked out of her own home and has to rely on her own connections to survive. Thus begins her life as a live-in housekeeper for a reclusive writer…

Ahhhh I can’t even with this seriessssss. It’s too cute and I simply love it. When Fumi becomes a housekeeper to a reclusive writer, Akatsuki, she slowly develops feelings for him. And there’s a lot of silly moments and cute moments and then THE CONFESSION. AHHHH dying of the cuuuuuute. Okay, sorry, it’s very fresh in my mind as I just finished reading all of the updated chapters online that I could find. But yeah, another light hearted read for you to check out if you’re interested!

Nanairo Sekai, volume 1 – four short stories. 1) The Glasses Thief
A boy with bad eyesight and the girl who is in love with him.

2) Convenience Store Honey
A boy worries about his quiet boyfriend.

3) Adult-Uniform
A girl wonders why her childhood friend does not speak to her anymore.

4) Refrigerator Chocolate
Satoru is going to have heart surgery with a 50/50 chance of surviving. One day he comes across a girl in a refrigerator…

This manga consisted of four short stories, each with some form of love in it, and it was just so bitter sweet reading them. They all deal with some small hardship that they have to overcome in some way, and I think that that brings the characters closer together. If you’re looking for a feel-good, but still kinda bitter sweet, read then check out this manga.

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Living no Matsunaga-san, chapters 1-2. Miko leaves the house of her parents to live with her uncle who runs a boarding house, but her first meeting with Matsunaga-san isn’t good and then he discovers that she is one of her uncle’s tenants. Even as a secondary student she surrounds herself with university students who have a very different life from her own. Can she fit into her new home?

Whyyyyy are there only two chapters translatedddddd!? I need more nowwwwwwww. Seriously, there’s something about this manga and I just NEED MORE. The art style is a good one, the story seems like it’s going to be fun, the main leads are interesting… Ugh. Give me more! I want to see their relationship grow, please, thanks… Even though there’s only a few chapters out right now, definitely check out this story when you can. Super cute and funny.

Hirunaka no Ryuusei, chapter 115-year-old country girl, Suzume Yosano, has to move to Tokyo to live with her uncle due to her father’s transfer. She bumps into a mysterious man who ends up taking her to her uncle’s place after she gets lost. Turns out, Suzume will be seeing him a lot more often once she starts school because… he’s her homeroom teacher!?

Okay, love stories between teacher and student seem to be popular right now, where the student is 16/17 and the teacher is in their early 20’s and I don’t know what it is about it, BUT I’M DIGGING IT. AHH. And I’ve only read the first chapter of this manga but I can tell I’m already going to be intrigued because it just has a lot of elements that I’m interested in and I know I’ll enjoy. More thoughts will come once I’ve read more.

Smokin’ Paradise by Jinsei Kataoka & Kazuma Kondou, volume 1. Youkou lives in a future where organ transplants are common and available to all, but life’s not as idyllic as it seems–it turns out a nefarious organization is using that technology for their own evil ends! Only the elite squad Jackalope has any chance of stopping them before it’s too late.

Okay, this one is much more intense than the previous ones I’ve talked about because it’s a shonen series, which means it’s geared toward boys, and therefore there’s more explosions and death and gutting and machines…. Anyway, this story has my interest piqued because so many things happen and I have so many questions about the main character and his history and why he is the way he is and what’s going to happen next. As far as I know only the first volume is out, but it’s really good. Violent, but good.

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Mayoke no Darling by Puku Okuyama – chapters 1-4. At the university’s badminton club’s freshmen welcome party, everyone is scared stiff when the scary-looking Tougo introduces himself. The fearless (or maybe just clueless) freshmen Haruka ends up sharing a taxi home with Tougo… and while everyone else trembles in fear before him, Haruka finds him handsome.

SUCH A CUTE YAOI, OMG. I almost forgot to add this to my list but even though there’s only a few chapters out right now, this was still very cute. It’s simple and sweet boy love and cute and makes me happy. Especially since it’s like the “scary looking” dude with the SUPER cute guy who’s all bubbly and kind of airheaded. Commence the warm fuzzies, I clearly can’t coherently write anything about this without squeeing.


So that’s most of what I’ve read so far in the last few months. There is another series or two I started and got a decent way through but I can’t remember their names. #fail

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Anyway, let me know if you’ve read any of these manga and what your thoughts were! Have any recommendations? I’d love to hear them!

Finding Joy in Art

I’ve always loved to draw. From the time I was young to now, I’ve always had a creative spark in me. I find it to be extremely fun and relaxing (even if I’m annoyed with how the product is turning out to look like).

I’ve been drawing almost every day for about a week now and I’ve found myself to be so happy and lost in a world that I haven’t visited in a long time that I crave more.

I haven’t had this feeling in so long and I need more.

But then I wondered to myself, “What is this feeling?” Don’t get me wrong, I’m really glad to have it, but what is this actual feeling? I thought about it and then I came to the conclusion: joy.

Now, if you knew me personally and some of the things going on in my life, you’d know that I haven’t experienced joy like this in quite some time. Yes, I find pockets and moments and those are of course just as precious and important, but this feeling of doing something I’ve always loved and had stopped for one reason or another to only pick up again and see myself improving and having fun doing so?

Yeah, that’s joy.

And I kind of just wanted to talk about that today because I don’t know about you, but I feel a lot of my generation is having a lot of trouble finding joy in life. Like, actual, pure joy. Something that makes our hearts sing and makes us feel so happy and content in the moment that we want to continually go back to those moments over and over and over again.

Finding what you love to do and actually finding the time to do so can be two wildly difficult things to accomplish. I’ve been searching for a purpose for quite some time now, trying to pinpoint something that can bring me happiness in my stressful world, and I found it once again in art. It’s great having people appreciate my art, complimenting me and telling me I’m improving, giving me tips if they’re artists themselves on how to improve a bit more, and then just people who like my art for the art itself. I find joy in that feeling of bringing other people happiness, for sure, and I want to continue to grab it.

And then there are the nay-sayers. The ones who will say, “Oh it’s great that you have that and everything, but what about real life?” I know of one very significant person in my life who is like that, and I let their words affect me all the time. I don’t think that you should put the things that you love so far on the back burner that they become a distant memory. In fact, I hate that with every fiber of my being. I know I’ve stated in a post before about how I put off art for some time and that each time I did draw I would feel this incessant urge to continue to draw and create more and more and more, but I never really hooked myself on that. I never took that step to really sit down and do it.

And now that I have been, I don’t want to let it go.

See, now, I’m the kind of person that puts everyone before myself. I’m still a selfish brat, but I still put others before me in almost all things. So when I say that I’ve been thinking about wanting to do art full-time, or at least start part-time, I get scared. Not only will it affect me, but it will also affect my husband. I’m afraid that if I were to pursue this kind of thing that it would be just too much all at once. He says I should just Shia Labeouf it and JUST DO IT, but it’s extremely difficult for me to do that without taking SO many things into consideration.

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And then there’s the part of me that looks back at that joy and that feeling I get when I’m drawing and I think, “Yeah, I want to do this. I really, really want to do this.” I want to improve my art skills, become better at multiple mediums, really showcase my style and show that I’m better than mediocre. I want to be able to have fun and do something I love in life that isn’t just a hobby, that isn’t something I just come home to from a job I couldn’t really care about.

I don’t know about you, but finding that joy and latching onto it, is such a beautiful thing. I know that I have obstacles to overcome (like the biggest one that every artist ever faces: comparing my art to others, ughhhhh), a lot of research to do, and a lot of saving up to do, but this is something that I’ve been becoming more and more serious about as time passes. And frankly, my happiness should really start to be coming first.

Anyway, that’s what I wanted to talk about today. My thoughts are probably all over the place, but I needed to express it somewhere and what better place than here, right? Also, if you want to check out my art, you should check out my art instagram!

Let’s Chat! ^w^

Do you ever face these kinds of problems of finding joy in your life in something you love to do, but not really doing anything about it? Do you consider it just a hobby or do you wish you could make it something you do day in and day out? What are some of the things that really bring you joy in life? Tell me all the things!