Inktober & NaNoWriMo Prep

Hello beautiful people! So it’s the first day of Halloween October and there are two major events going on that I’m going to be participating in, and they are:

Inktober and NaNoWriMo Prep.

In case you don’t know what either of these things are, here’s a little info about them & what I plan on doing:

Inktober

Inktober is a drawing challenge that has four rules:

  1. Make a drawing in ink.
  2. Post it online.
  3. Hashtag it with #inktober and #inktober2017.
  4. Repeat every day of October.

That’s it! I first saw the challenge last year around the time I started my art Instagram and I wanted to participate this year. There’s an official list of prompts for the 31 days, and I’m going to be using that list to draw every day in October and – hopefully – improve my skills more.

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I’ll be using Micron Fine Liner pens for the majority of my work, but I may do some in color? I’m not sure as I’ve always loved drawing in black and white, but we’ll see how I’m feeling for that prompt that day. So if you want to see how the challenge is coming along then please check out my art Instagram linked above!

NaNoWriMo

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National Novel Writing Month is coming up NEXT MONTH (ugh, it hurts to say that) and OMG I NEED TO PREP SO BAD. Like. I’ve never really prepped for this before? I kind of did last year where I had an outline and things were going pretty good UNTIL THEY WEREN’T. URGH. But it’s fine. Everything’s fine.

So what’s NaNoWriMo you ask? It’s a 30 days writing challenge that takes place from November 1-30 where you are challenging yourself to write 50,000 words in 30 days. It’s a super fun (and kind of exhausting) challenge, and if you love to write or you have a story idea that you’ve been dying to tell, then this is probably the challenge for you!

Of course you don’t have to write 50,000 words if you’re unable to or if your story doesn’t need to be that long, but the goal is to reach that word count if you can in 30 days.

I don’t have a synopsis ready yet as I’m still working out some kinks in the story I want to write this year, but here are three keywords that my story revolves around: fantasy, depression, love.

This is a story that I NEED to tell. It’s a subject matter that’s close to my heart and it’s one in which I feel will not only be challenging for me to write, but also beneficial. I hope that during the month of October I will be able to successfully prep myself by doing the following things:

  • Write an outline of the whole story. I found that I actually like outlining as I’m able to use it as a guideline for my writing so that I don’t stray too far from where I had imagined the story going.
  • Come up with a synopsis. Honestly, this should be the first thing I do because even though I have a concept of the character and the power she’ll have (I was also going to originally make her a male, but I think I’m going to write her as a female… we’ll see), I don’t exactly have a plot figured out. Like, I know the general message I want to get across in the story, but I don’t have a way to get there. I sort of do but I don’t? It’s very hard to explain.
  • Work on small writing prompts to get to know my characters, the world, and what they have to deal with. This is a new thing I’m going to try this year. I usually already know my character as I have a file in my head of who they are in everything (imagine Bruce Almighty when he’s in that building meeting God for the first time and opens the file cabinet), but I think that this will also be very beneficial as I can write back story, side story, develop the world, figure out weapons systems and powers and stuff like that. I have vague concepts but not enough for me to really go on.
  • Participate in little NaNo Prep challenges here and there. I think it’ll be fun to join in with other writers and brainstorm and chat about our novels. Plus it’s a little encouraging to know that others will be doing similar things as I am.

Alright, so there you have it! These are the two challenges that I’ll be facing in October. I’ll try to do weekly wrap ups of Inktober to show the art I created for that week, as well as discuss what I’ve been doing for NaNoWriMo as well.

Let’s Chat! ^w^

If you’re participating in either of these challenges please let me know! I’d love to be able to go on this journey with you and see just what October has in store for us. Are you interested in either of the challenges? Let me know how you’re prepping for NaNo.

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Anime Rewind #3

Oh hey, I forgot to update last month, but since it’s still the very beginning of this month, let’s talk about the anime I’ve watched since my last Anime Rewind.

Shows I Continued from Last Time

  • Boruto: Naruto Next GenerationsEpisodes 13-18, ongoing – The plot of the first arc has wrapped up and I think that it went pretty well! I mean, I wasn’t expecting the outcome, which is nice, but now the last few episodes since the first arc ended feel strongly of filler. Which is fine, I mean, they have to do that sometimes, but I also feel like we lost some of what the main story is about. It feels kind of all over the place right now, but I think we’re finally getting back to another arc soon, so I’m looking forward to it.
  • Tsukigakireicompleted – I’M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING. Oh my God, this was SUCH a good romance anime! There wasn’t any super drama with other people butting into the relationship or whatever, and though there was little drama it felt realistic and all of it was just so sweet at the end. I think I really did cry. Or maybe I was too happy to cry? I don’t know, but either way, HIGHLY recommend this anime if you’re looking for a sweet, pure romance. 5/5 stars.
  • My Hero Academiaepisodes 9-13, season 1 complete, season 2 to be watched soon – This plot line, though! I love this anime so much I even made my own BNHA (Boku no Hiro Academia) original characters (like a lot of people were doing on Instagram). The first main arc has ended with a bang and I’m really excited to see what happened next with all of the characters from the show. I want to know what happens to All Might and if Midoriya will finally be able to control his power, and I know there’s going to be a lot of battling in the next season between characters so I’m really excited to see the development of them all. I felt like Deku (Midoriya) really grew as a character by the end of the first season. Like… I could feel and see a change in him and several of the other characters. Ahhhhh, go watch iiiiit. Season 1 rating: 5/5 stars.
  • Kanka Bancho Otome -girl beats boys-completed – This was an interesting series with super short episodes that could have been really cool to see expanded, but alas, it was a way of promoting the game I guess. Anyway, I thought that it ended kind of bittersweetly because I was expecting one thing and it ended differently. Maybe I’m just being picky, I don’t know. But I really wish certain plot lines were expanded upon and that we could really see the development that happens between all of the characters. Alas, it is over. 4/5 stars.
  • Kiznaivercompleted, episodes 6-12 – I just finished this anime and I almost cried. Almost. And it was INCREDIBLE. I seriously loved it and the concept behind it was so incredibly fascinating to me. The development between all of the characters was great to see and it was cool to see just how much of a connection can really make or break people and relationships. I think that this anime was just very unique in its execution with the subject of the concept of friendship, love, and how being connected doesn’t necessarily have to be through alternative means from just connecting naturally. It was so good and I highly recommend it if you want a more thought provoking anime with characters you’ll connect to in some way, an enticing plot, and super cool animation. 5/5 stars.
  • Tonari no Seki-Kuncompleted – I mean, I could’ve just given my final thoughts last month, but I has one episode left apparently… Anyway, SUPER CUTE. Loved it. Very funny and I suggest watching this if you need a break from the seriousness of life because it’s just so charming and funny. 5/5 stars.

Now let’s move on to some of the stuff I didn’t talk about last time that’s new this time.

Shows

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Tsuredure Childrenepisodes 1-5, ongoing – So. CUTE. And SO funny. This is an anime about several different couples and how they have crushes on one another and how they start (or don’t start) dating and it’s adorable and funny and my friend got me hooked so I blame her for this and just… Go watch it. You won’t be disappointed, I swear.

Movies

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Kiki’s Delivery Service – Okay, I’ve seen this movie a million times and I already own it and all of that, BUT. My friend (who I mentioned above that got me hooked on Tsuredure Children) decided to surprise me with a girls’ night out to go see the JAPANESE DUB of Kiki in THEATERS. I was SO excited to see it on the big screen because it’s one of my all time favorite Studio Ghibli movies and it was so cool to see the Japanese version and how the subtitles and speaking differentiate from the English version (because I’m clearly obsessed and know how some of the lines go). I love this movie in itself because it’s about a young girl witch who leaves her family (as is tradition for young witches her age) to study for a year alone in a town of her choosing. And though there are many ups and downs for Kiki along the way, the ultimate experience she has is a positive one. Ahhh, it’s so cute and good and I love it and you should all watch it if you haven’t. 5/5 stars.


I clearly haven’t watched a lot of new anime this month, but I’ve watched some good ones that I’ve talked about before and I can’t wait to see what I watch this month.

Let’s Chat ^w^

What have you watched recently? What’s your favorite Studio Ghibli movie? Let me know!

Why I Love Boys Love

Okay. Has anyone ever heard the term “fujoshi?” No? It’s a term in Japanese that’s given to a female otaku in the yaoi fandom and it pretty much just means that you like boy/boy love. (yaoi = boys love with sexual intimacy in most cases). Akidearest on YouTube explains it in a really fun way, but basically: I am a fujoshi. (Also, if you’re a male who likes the boy/boy love, the name for that is fudanshi.)

Now a lot of what I’m going to talk about is related to manga series as most of the boys love that I read is in manga or comic form, but that’s not to say that I don’t enjoy it in anime/movie/novel/life forms, either, because I do and it’s adorable and just I love it, okay?

But why is it that I think these things? I remember being introduced to yaoi back in my early high school days. I tried to resist as best I could with my friends, but I very barely got sucked into it. I wasn’t super into it in the way some of my friends were, but I still thought it was cute (and hot). There would be a seme (more masculine, alpha type) and an uke (more feminine, flamboyant type), a very basic plotline, and then sometimes sex, other time angst, and other times kissing. It was all very intriguing to me, but at the same time I wasn’t super into it then like I am now.

I honestly don’t know how it happened recently, but at some point this year, I read a yaoi and… well…

Goodbye normal life.

Hello fujoshi life.

Oh, let me also make it clear that I also do enjoy yuri and shoujo-ai (girl/girl love) and think that both kinds are cute (and hot), but I’ve been wicked into yaoi a lot more recently.

I got hooked on one yaoi, then another, and another, and eventually I found myself craving reading them. I couldn’t stop! And I started finding ones with better plots and more complex characters (and other times I was just looking for the sexy things or just a simple plot). And oh man, I have loved almost every second of it. Of course I’ve had to dig through the not so great ones to find the better ones, but many of the ones I’ve read have been to my taste.

So I want to talk about some of the manga and comics/webtoons that I’ve read that feature a shounen-ai or yaoi premise and that I highly recommend to you all.

Comics

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At the End of the Road by Haribo – After a car accident, Taemin finds himself in the body of Siwon, a victim of bullying at school. No longer a pushover, he starts standing up for himself but then meets Woojin, an old friend from the past. Somehow, Woojin immediately picks up Tamin’s ‘scent’ from Siwon. What happened between these two in the past and how will it affect their future?

Oh. My. Goodness. The art style is very good and the colors are simple but drive the emotions, and the story? So complex! And sad in some bits, and enraging in others, and funny in others, too. This is an ongoing series and I need to know what happens next and I need them to kiss more and omgomgomg.

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Out of Control by Bboong – Yuri, one of the school’s most handsome guys, and Jaerim, one of the school’s ugliest, collide! Or don’t they… Can’t understand what’s going on between these two! It’s out of control!

This comic is hilarious. So hilarious. But also sweet and dramatic sometimes? I’m really enjoying it, to say the least. It’s completed and I have just several more episodes to go before I finished, but I also don’t want it to end!

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King’s Maker by Haga / Artist: Kang Jiyoung – Wolfgang Goldenleonard, the 4th Prince of the kingdom, returns to the palace after years of living in hiding. He rejects everything about his new royal life, but is intrigued by the mysterious and dutiful Shin Soohyuk, a catamite of the King. As Wolfgang slowly opens up and learns the ways of the palace, Soohyuk begins to see something special about the wild, unkempt, and stubborn young prince. He might just be the one Soohyuk has been waiting for… the one who could light the flame of rebellion.

I love this comic so much. It’s probably my favorite that I’ve listed so far. The art is beyond gorgeous, and though there’s not any romance yet, I’m anticipating the moment they get together. There are some sadder and more disturbing parts, but overall it’s super funny and very interesting. Definitely recommend you checking out the free episodes.

Webtoons

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Crushed!! by Himalyaa – A boys love triangle story.

Okay, that’s a very very vague and basic premise to this story. It’s got three guys whose views we cycle through: Crush (the one pictured), Scott, and Reuben. Crush is very openly gay, he’s on the hockey team with Scott and Reuben, and he enjoys sex. A lot. And Reuben is realizing his feelings for Crush (whom he’s had sex with), and Scott has a secret crush on Crush (whom he’s also had sex with) and there’s just a lot of love triangle drama stuff, but it’s also funny, and it’s steamy. Oh my. Definitely NSFW, but it’s so good!

Manga

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Hatsukoi by Kazuki Rai – Hirono Yuusa always believed he was special and destined for greatness–until tragedy struck in his final year of middle school. Now, jaded and disillusioned, he’s completely given up on ever trying to be anything more than ordinary. But when he starts to notice classmate Himekawa Ichigo struggling to do his best against all odds, he can’t help but want to cheer him on.

This is a doujinshi manga, which means it takes characters from other anime or manga series and throws them into different situations or worlds and gives them new plots, and this one in particular is based on the characters Kageyama and Hinata from the manga/anime Haiyuu!! And OMG this series so far? FREAKIN’. AWESOME. Like, I need the next chapters to be translated now because I need to see more cuteness and just… omg my babies I love this series so, so much.

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Kokoro Control by Kazuki Rai – Kageyama can no longer focus around Hinata because of his unspoken feelings, and his volleyball suffers for it–so Hinata agrees to do absolutely anything to help get Kageyama back on his game…

Another doujinshi about Hinata and Kageyama and I HIGHLY recommend this one! It’s so cute, slightly steamy but not too steamy, angsty, and just has so much goodness in it that I can’t recommend it enough. Seriously, check this one out if you can because it’s really good.

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Rutta to Kodama by Fujitani Youko – Rutta changed from a delinquent to a nice guy because of his new roommate, Miyagi Kodama. Kodama was unsure of his own feelings after Rutta’s confession. After seeing Rutta’s injuries caused from excessive fighting, Kodama finally decided to face the truth and accepted him.

This one is a sometimes steamy yaoi with lots of cute goings on as well as funny and serious moments. It’s a more light hearted manga despite some of what goes on, but I really love it. I think I just love the “looks super scary but is actually nice” guy and the “looks like he could get overtaken by a grandma” guy pairing. xD


I think that’s good to start you off with some boys love stuff. I could go on and on and recommend more steamy things and whatnot, but I figured these aren’t too bad… Kinda. Haha!

Let’s Chat! ^w^

Do you read boys love novels/manga/whatever? Why do you like the pairings? Have any recommendations for me? Let me know!

How Books Can Bring Happiness

I think it’s safe to say that a lot of us deal with some form of mental illness and we all have different ways of coping with said mental illnesses. One of those ways for me is by shopping. Now, I know this isn’t always the best option in dealing with my illnesses, but if it’s something that brings me temporary joy when I’m feeling otherwise deep darkness, I’m going to do so. Of course, I often regret those decisions right away, but I usually end up with something cute or useful or a book or something… It all evens out, right?

I was just thinking about this and wanted to talk about how reading helps with depression and anxiety, at least for me, and how art is a huge stress reliever.

I know we all joke about how we love books because they destroy us, but is that really a joke? What is it about our emotions being pulled this way and that that make us feel happy? I love to read fluffy stories because they’re super feel-good and cute and they just make me want to swim in a rainbow of daisies, but I also love to read dark books that deal with a very different side of humanity because it’s always interesting to see how they affect me and how I think afterward.

I think that no matter what kinds of books we read, unless we actually hate or dislike the book for whatever reason, it brings us some form of happiness. It lets us feel like there’s more inside of us than what we had before and that’s a feeling that’s very euphoric and hard to let go of.

I haven’t really read any novels this year, but I’ve been reading a lot of manga that’s been making me feel good or giddy or happy. Of course I’ve read some darker things with a lot of action and blood and death, but I find that those stories, too, are just as valuable to me as those that are full of cute romances. When I read novels, it’s the same thing, and I get that feeling of excitement and anticipation when I’m reading. It’s like a light at the end of that dark tunnel that’s trying to keep me trapped inside. I reach for that light and I find hold onto that small glimmer that makes me happy again.

Books are powerful. They have the power to change our emotions and instill in us something other than what we were expecting. And that’s amazing.

And even though I have probably over 200 books that are on my shelves waiting to be read, I know that they’ll still be there, waiting for me no matter my mental state that day, and that’s such a wonderful comfort (even though I’m running out of space ahhhh).

The same goes for art. Art is a super stress reliever for me. I find that when I’m drawing, I can be doing it for hours and not feel hungry or depressed or anything other than focused on what’s in front of me. I’m creating something that I’m happy with (hopefully; the end result is always negotiable in that regard) and something that brings me joy, and that’s something that I wouldn’t trade for the world.

I just want you to know that if you’re dealing with your mental illnesses to remember you’re not alone and to not give up. Find the healthy things that make you happy and latch onto them in those moments. Who knows, maybe they’ll be just what you need in that moment to turn it around for the better.

Let’s Chat! ^w^

What books bring you happiness when you’re feeling down? I’d love to hear any recommendations!

Finding Joy in Art

I’ve always loved to draw. From the time I was young to now, I’ve always had a creative spark in me. I find it to be extremely fun and relaxing (even if I’m annoyed with how the product is turning out to look like).

I’ve been drawing almost every day for about a week now and I’ve found myself to be so happy and lost in a world that I haven’t visited in a long time that I crave more.

I haven’t had this feeling in so long and I need more.

But then I wondered to myself, “What is this feeling?” Don’t get me wrong, I’m really glad to have it, but what is this actual feeling? I thought about it and then I came to the conclusion: joy.

Now, if you knew me personally and some of the things going on in my life, you’d know that I haven’t experienced joy like this in quite some time. Yes, I find pockets and moments and those are of course just as precious and important, but this feeling of doing something I’ve always loved and had stopped for one reason or another to only pick up again and see myself improving and having fun doing so?

Yeah, that’s joy.

And I kind of just wanted to talk about that today because I don’t know about you, but I feel a lot of my generation is having a lot of trouble finding joy in life. Like, actual, pure joy. Something that makes our hearts sing and makes us feel so happy and content in the moment that we want to continually go back to those moments over and over and over again.

Finding what you love to do and actually finding the time to do so can be two wildly difficult things to accomplish. I’ve been searching for a purpose for quite some time now, trying to pinpoint something that can bring me happiness in my stressful world, and I found it once again in art. It’s great having people appreciate my art, complimenting me and telling me I’m improving, giving me tips if they’re artists themselves on how to improve a bit more, and then just people who like my art for the art itself. I find joy in that feeling of bringing other people happiness, for sure, and I want to continue to grab it.

And then there are the nay-sayers. The ones who will say, “Oh it’s great that you have that and everything, but what about real life?” I know of one very significant person in my life who is like that, and I let their words affect me all the time. I don’t think that you should put the things that you love so far on the back burner that they become a distant memory. In fact, I hate that with every fiber of my being. I know I’ve stated in a post before about how I put off art for some time and that each time I did draw I would feel this incessant urge to continue to draw and create more and more and more, but I never really hooked myself on that. I never took that step to really sit down and do it.

And now that I have been, I don’t want to let it go.

See, now, I’m the kind of person that puts everyone before myself. I’m still a selfish brat, but I still put others before me in almost all things. So when I say that I’ve been thinking about wanting to do art full-time, or at least start part-time, I get scared. Not only will it affect me, but it will also affect my husband. I’m afraid that if I were to pursue this kind of thing that it would be just too much all at once. He says I should just Shia Labeouf it and JUST DO IT, but it’s extremely difficult for me to do that without taking SO many things into consideration.

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And then there’s the part of me that looks back at that joy and that feeling I get when I’m drawing and I think, “Yeah, I want to do this. I really, really want to do this.” I want to improve my art skills, become better at multiple mediums, really showcase my style and show that I’m better than mediocre. I want to be able to have fun and do something I love in life that isn’t just a hobby, that isn’t something I just come home to from a job I couldn’t really care about.

I don’t know about you, but finding that joy and latching onto it, is such a beautiful thing. I know that I have obstacles to overcome (like the biggest one that every artist ever faces: comparing my art to others, ughhhhh), a lot of research to do, and a lot of saving up to do, but this is something that I’ve been becoming more and more serious about as time passes. And frankly, my happiness should really start to be coming first.

Anyway, that’s what I wanted to talk about today. My thoughts are probably all over the place, but I needed to express it somewhere and what better place than here, right? Also, if you want to check out my art, you should check out my art instagram!

Let’s Chat! ^w^

Do you ever face these kinds of problems of finding joy in your life in something you love to do, but not really doing anything about it? Do you consider it just a hobby or do you wish you could make it something you do day in and day out? What are some of the things that really bring you joy in life? Tell me all the things!