Do You Ever…

Want to just say “screw it” to your TBR for the month and read whatever you want?

Want to read every single book on your shelf at the same time?

Rearrange your shelves like there’s no tomorrow?

These are some of the things that have been plaguing me the last several days. I just haven’t wanted to read the books I had planned for my TBR this month, even though there’s only three of them, and I’ve already read three books not on my TBR, so it’s not like I lost out or anything.

I just have this strong urge to rebel against myself and say, “HA! I’m going to read what I want!” And, well, that’s kind of the idea, right?

My only problem is: every time I go to pick up a book, I can’t make myself read it. Maybe it’s a nagging feeling about not reading the books I said I’d read for the month. Or maybe it’s just that I’m in the mood for something else. I’m not sure, but it’s driving me crazy.

AND THEN. I literally want to read every single book I haven’t read that are on my shelves right now. I want to explore these new worlds and learn these new characters and fall in love and hate and cry. Like, seriously, these emotions are strong.

But in reality, I know I can’t read every single book at the same time because then 1) I’d be overwhelmed, 2) I’d most likely mix up characters/worlds/plots/etc, and 3) ain’t nobody got time for that.

And the rearranging the shelves thing… I just want to make them look prettier. That’s really the least of my worries right now.

Have you ever felt like this? What do you do to satisfy yourself? What works for you? Do you just jump right into another book or try to really stick to a set schedule? Sometimes I just need to take a break and watch Netflix or play a video game or just do something else so my brain can reset. Do you ever find yourself needing to do that, too? Let me know!